These writings are for the imperfect person searching for more of the Perfect God.

Wednesday, October 28, 2015

What's in a name?

What's your name?

The world gives us names.  All sorts of names.

Not good enough.
Not beautiful enough.
Not smart enough.
Not creative enough.
Not _______ enough.

What's the name you're believing that the enemy is whispering in your ear? In your heart?

If we don't know our God-given name, we're going to believe the name our enemy chooses to label us with. And trust me, he's naming us at this very moment.

Only those with ownership of us have the right & ability to name us, as our earthly parents did.  Satan works over time to speak a name over our lives so that he has ownership of our mind, will and emotions.

God has given each one of us a name! A name different, possibly, then the names our earthly parents chose.

Biblical names had meaning, direction and purpose, I'm recognizing as I flip through these pages of His word.
Biblical names were the authentic identity of a person, I begin to recognize.

Interesting, isn't it, how satan desires to name us a lie while he and his army work creatively & deceitfully to fully and completely convince us of this name?
We NEED to know our name! 

What's your name?

There's an epidemic of teen suicide right now in this country.
Within a 15 mile radius of my home, there has been a suicide in almost  every high school in the area within the last year.  Three of which have taken place this school year, and the first semester has not yet even ended.

We NEED to know our name!

What's your name?

These precious children do not know their name.
We're falling prey to the enemies lies of the name he labels us with.
We're falling prey to the world's name that has been placed over us as our identity and worth, or lack of.

We need to know our name so that when the enemy tells us who we are or who we are not (and he will) we can immediately, unequivocally speak back to him our God-given name which speaks of HOPE, REDEMPTION, PURPOSE, VALUE AND VISION.

What's your name?

God has a name that he has hand sowed into our spirit.
It's a name that identifies us as who we are in Him.  
Our name represents our authentic identity.

Not the identity the world gives.
Not the identity our status gives.
Not the identity our teachers or classmates gives.
Not the identity our vocation gives.
Not the identity our wealth gives.
Not the identity our poverty gives.
Not the identity others' opinions give.
Not the identity our past gives.

Our name is our identity; the name God chose while being knitted in our mothers womb.

We MUST know our name!

What's your name?
Be relentless in the pursuit.  Don't give up.  Ask God, plead with God.  We must know our name to win the every day battle of life in our belief system, in our thoughts, in our feelings & in our mind!

What's your name?

God originated names to speak as our identity.  
In the bible, God shares His chosen name for people, over and over.

For instance, He changed the name of Abram to Abraham (meaning 'Father of many')
He changed the name of Sarai to Sarah (meaning 'His princess')
He changed the name of Jacob to Israel (meaning 'Prevails with God)
He changed the name of simon to Peter (meaning 'The rock')
He changed the name of Solomon to Jedediah (meaning 'Hand-in-hand with God')

Can you imagine walking through life knowing your identity as "Father of many" or "Gods princess" or "I prevail with God" or "The rock" or I'm "hand-in-hand with God?"

Every day we are going to be faced with challenges, circumstances, storms, negative opinions, rejections, pain, betrayal, uncertainty... all of which the enemy will use as prime bait for us to grab hold of the name he calls us, in order that we fold under the excruciating weight of the negativity and deceit his name carries.

It's time to take a stand and know our name.

To scream it back at satan and use our lives to fulfill a greater calling and purpose than we could ever begin to know or imagine, when we live out our true authentic identity of our name.

What's your name?

Tuesday, October 13, 2015

The coffee beans of lies

And so I'm left face to face with myself asking....

Why is it I can "know" I am loved by God and yet feel so unloveable?

Why is it I can "know" I am His masterpiece (Eph 2:10) and yet feel deeply inherently flawed?

Why is it I can "know" God is enough and yet revert to an old faulty counterfeit coping mechanism?

Why is it I can "know" my circumstances shouldn't dictate my reality and yet they do?

Why is it I can "know" God is trustworthy and yet use control instead of faith?

Why is it I can "know" my security is found in Christ and yet experience great waves of deep rooted insecurity?

Why is it I can "know" I am adopted and heirs with God (Rom 8:17) and yet think and operate as if I'm an orphan?

Why is it I can "know" His promises and yet allow the grip of fear and worry to consume me?


Staring deep into this dark-colored hot water, filtered by Starbucks roasted coffee beans, I can't help but think how this warm cup of coffee was once pure, clean, clear, un-clouded, un-filtered, simple, transparent and pellucid-- That is, until it went through the filter of fresh grounded beans in my coffee maker.

But, what if the pure, clean, clear, un-clouded, un-filtered, simple, transparent, pellucid water represented me, you, us? 

He took this insecure, flawed, controlling, idol-worshipping, self-consumed, angry, broken, wounded, prideful, out-of-order heart of mine and stripped it naked and clothed it with the shining armor of His love and His presence (Romans 13:14.)  I was left holy and blameless as I stood before Him without a single fault- pure, clean, clear, un-clouded, un-filtered, simple, transparent and pellucid.

And not because of anything I did to deserve His cleansing- but because out of His undeserved, incomprehensible kindness, He poured His spiritual drano into the ugliest, darkest, hidden areas of my heart and washed it clean- clean as this coffee once represented BEFORE going through the filter of the coffee maker.

The filter.  Something so simple and yet so powerful.

The filter changes the color.
The filter changes the taste.
The filter changes the texture.
The filter changes the smell.
The filter changes the purpose.

The filter changes.

So I hesitantly and cautiously ask myself & dare ask you:

What is the filter of your life?

1. Could your filter be a lie?

for example: The filter of my heart may be discolored and coated to say I am flawed and not good enough.  I'll never measure up.  I'm un-fixable and unloveable - even though, because of God's undeserved kindness and love, He has made me pure, holy and blameless as the purest of all water.

2.  Could your filter be a feeling?

for example:  God has snapped the heavy chains of bondage, sin and strongholds, yet my filter coats   this truth with overwhelming feelings of guilt and shame.  His word says "even if we feel guilty, He is greater than our feelings... If we don't feel guilty, we can come to Him with bold confidence."         (1 John 3:21)

3.  Could your filter be a memory?

for example:  Did something happen in the past that spoke negative messages into the heart?  Does this particular memory/memories over-ride who God says you are and who He says He is?  Maybe this memory engrained into you a false inaccurate identity.

4.  Could your filter be a label?

for example: Did others label you less-than, not good-enough, un-worthy, not valuable, broken beyond repair-  even though God has permanently stitched a label on you of being worthy,     precious, restored, redeemed, renewed, rebuilt and transformed?

5.  Could your filter be a failed relationship?

for example: A relationship, which claimed to be built on love, rejected and denied you instead.  A relationship, intended to represent the love of God, hurt and wounded you instead.  The faulty filter now repeats itself  in the core of the heart that God, too, can't be trusted- often at a deep subconscious level.

Could your filter be a wound?
Could your filter be a broken heart?
Could your filter be shame?
Could your filter be un-forgiveness?
Could your filter be past pain?
Could your filter be un-dealt-with grief?

Could your filter be _______ ? (fill in the blank)

Filters turn pure, clean, clear, un-clouded, un-filtered, simple, transparent, pellucid water of our hearts and pollute it with the coffee beans of lies-  where a simple message, suggestion, statement, opinion, thought from others or within ourselves is processed first through the coating of a faulty filter system.

A filter that perverts God's clean water within our hearts with deceit in order to keep us from living in freedom.

A filter that keeps us in bondage to self-protection.

A filter that keeps us in the web of doubt.

A filter that keeps us in the snares of hopelessness.

A filter that keeps us in slavery to our feelings.

A filter that keeps us entangled to chaos and confusion.

A filter that keeps us in head knowledge and not heart experience.

"I am holy and blameless as I stand before God without a single fault... but I must continue to (1.)BELIEVE this truth and (2.)STAND FIRM in it.  (3.) NOT DRIFTING AWAY from the assurance I received when I first heart about God" (when He purified my heart into a clean, clear un-clouded, un-filtered, simple, transparent, pellucid glass of life-giving water.) Colossians 1:22-23.

My mind races back to just this morning when I removed the old, wet, soggy, used, stale, dirty coffee grinds from the filter of the kitchen coffee maker.
I, too, must allow God to remove the old, wet, soggy, used, stale, dirty, deceitful, harmful, counterfeit filter of my heart.

He has the dirty job of removing and the beautiful job of restoring.

My job is to: 
1. BELIEVE- I am forgiven, holy, blameless and worthy in His sight.

2. STAND FIRM- in who He purified me to be.

3. REFUSE TO DRIFT AWAY- under the weight of the soggy grinds of my past, my shame, my feelings & the lies of the enemy.

Father,  Through the power of the Holy Spirit, become my filter system.  Eradicate any and all forms of faulty and deceitful filters of my heart that do not project the truth of who You are and who I am because of your undeserved love on the cross.  You came into the middle of my sin, and plucked me out and gave me life- life in abundance.  Please enable me and all who are  reading this today, to stand firm in the truth of who we are because You live in us.  Please provide each of us with a view of how You see us so that we can live a life of honor, purpose, security, hope, love and glory to only You, Jesus.  Please remove any and all barriers that keep us imprisoned to the head knowledge of your love and grow our roots deep into You so that we "know" our value, our worth, our authentic identity in the deepest depth of our heart, in the powerful, perfect, good name of Jesus.