And so I'm left face to face with myself asking....
Why is it I can "know" I am loved by God and yet feel so unloveable?
Why is it I can "know" I am His masterpiece (Eph 2:10) and yet feel deeply inherently flawed?
Why is it I can "know" God is enough and yet revert to an old faulty counterfeit coping mechanism?
Why is it I can "know" my circumstances shouldn't dictate my reality and yet they do?
Why is it I can "know" God is trustworthy and yet use control instead of faith?
Why is it I can "know" my security is found in Christ and yet experience great waves of deep rooted insecurity?
Why is it I can "know" I am adopted and heirs with God (Rom 8:17) and yet think and operate as if I'm an orphan?
Why is it I can "know" His promises and yet allow the grip of fear and worry to consume me?
Staring deep into this dark-colored hot water, filtered by Starbucks roasted coffee beans, I can't help but think how this warm cup of coffee was once pure, clean, clear, un-clouded, un-filtered, simple, transparent and pellucid-- That is, until it went through the filter of fresh grounded beans in my coffee maker.
He took this insecure, flawed, controlling, idol-worshipping, self-consumed, angry, broken, wounded, prideful, out-of-order heart of mine and stripped it naked and clothed it with the shining armor of His love and His presence (Romans 13:14.) I was left holy and blameless as I stood before Him without a single fault- pure, clean, clear, un-clouded, un-filtered, simple, transparent and pellucid.
And not because of anything I did to deserve His cleansing- but because out of His undeserved, incomprehensible kindness, He poured His spiritual drano into the ugliest, darkest, hidden areas of my heart and washed it clean- clean as this coffee once represented BEFORE going through the filter of the coffee maker.
The filter. Something so simple and yet so powerful.
The filter changes the color.
The filter changes the texture.
The filter changes the smell.
The filter changes the purpose.
The filter changes.
What is the filter of your life?
1. Could your filter be a lie?
for example: The filter of my heart may be discolored and coated to say I am flawed and not good enough. I'll never measure up. I'm un-fixable and unloveable - even though, because of God's undeserved kindness and love, He has made me pure, holy and blameless as the purest of all water.
2. Could your filter be a feeling?
for example: God has snapped the heavy chains of bondage, sin and strongholds, yet my filter coats this truth with overwhelming feelings of guilt and shame. His word says "even if we feel guilty, He is greater than our feelings... If we don't feel guilty, we can come to Him with bold confidence." (1 John 3:21)
3. Could your filter be a memory?
for example: Did something happen in the past that spoke negative messages into the heart? Does this particular memory/memories over-ride who God says you are and who He says He is? Maybe this memory engrained into you a false inaccurate identity.
4. Could your filter be a label?
for example: Did others label you less-than, not good-enough, un-worthy, not valuable, broken beyond repair- even though God has permanently stitched a label on you of being worthy, precious, restored, redeemed, renewed, rebuilt and transformed?
5. Could your filter be a failed relationship?
for example: A relationship, which claimed to be built on love, rejected and denied you instead. A relationship, intended to represent the love of God, hurt and wounded you instead. The faulty filter now repeats itself in the core of the heart that God, too, can't be trusted- often at a deep subconscious level.
Could your filter be a wound?
Could your filter be a broken heart?
Could your filter be shame?
Could your filter be un-forgiveness?
Could your filter be past pain?
Could your filter be un-dealt-with grief?
Could your filter be _______ ? (fill in the blank)
Filters turn pure, clean, clear, un-clouded, un-filtered, simple, transparent, pellucid water of our hearts and pollute it with the coffee beans of lies- where a simple message, suggestion, statement, opinion, thought from others or within ourselves is processed first through the coating of a faulty filter system.
A filter that perverts God's clean water within our hearts with deceit in order to keep us from living in freedom.
A filter that keeps us in bondage to self-protection.
A filter that keeps us in the web of doubt.
A filter that keeps us in the snares of hopelessness.
A filter that keeps us in slavery to our feelings.
A filter that keeps us entangled to chaos and confusion.
A filter that keeps us in head knowledge and not heart experience.
My mind races back to just this morning when I removed the old, wet, soggy, used, stale, dirty coffee grinds from the filter of the kitchen coffee maker.
I, too, must allow God to remove the old, wet, soggy, used, stale, dirty, deceitful, harmful, counterfeit filter of my heart.
He has the dirty job of removing and the beautiful job of restoring.
My job is to:
1. BELIEVE- I am forgiven, holy, blameless and worthy in His sight.
2. STAND FIRM- in who He purified me to be.
3. REFUSE TO DRIFT AWAY- under the weight of the soggy grinds of my past, my shame, my feelings & the lies of the enemy.
Father, Through the power of the Holy Spirit, become my filter system. Eradicate any and all forms of faulty and deceitful filters of my heart that do not project the truth of who You are and who I am because of your undeserved love on the cross. You came into the middle of my sin, and plucked me out and gave me life- life in abundance. Please enable me and all who are reading this today, to stand firm in the truth of who we are because You live in us. Please provide each of us with a view of how You see us so that we can live a life of honor, purpose, security, hope, love and glory to only You, Jesus. Please remove any and all barriers that keep us imprisoned to the head knowledge of your love and grow our roots deep into You so that we "know" our value, our worth, our authentic identity in the deepest depth of our heart, in the powerful, perfect, good name of Jesus.